holidayphobia

yes, it's happening again,

the anxiety is creeping up on me.

i've been preoccupied with my fear of having nothing to do for the whole holiday.

i loathe long holidays due to the empty feeling it tends to create inside of me

idle times means more time to contemplate

contemplation often result with feelings of inferiority and desperation

it's not that i hate holidays, God knows with all the things i've had to do lately i need the break.

it's just that i'm afraid of my own negative thoughts.