all the things that can't be conveyed in a phonecall

i'm happy for you, i really am. honestly i'm very happy for you. i'm sure he's a very good man, and i really wish the best for the two of you
but i can't deny that it hurts me to listen to you talking about him. it's not your fault, it's not his either. nobody could be sentenced guilty for being naturally great.
it's just me. i'm sorry but i'm weak. please excuse this stupid character of mine that couldn't stop being selfish for a while and be happy for other people.
it's not your fault that i'm lonely and miserable. but please forgive me for being this sore loser that can't deny the hurt she feels while you're happily talking about him