my bad

i know i shouldn't
but i did it anyway
i was merely trying to find out what i was missing
but i ended up losing something.

i lost the illusion that i meant something to someone
i thought i was special.
but i found out that i was nothing.

just an insignificant part of your past
i even think that you're trying to erase me
then do so if you must

but please tell me how am supposed to go on
knowing that i am nothing to you
when you are everything to me

i tought that i was over you
that i could still go on
that i would have no problem seeing you with somebody else
that i would feel no pain reading your confession of how special somebody else is to you
that i would be able to accept that i am no longer a significant part of you life

i was wrong.