i'm no donkey

for only a donkey would fall into the same hole twice...

but then again, as it is, the signs are showing that maybe i am a donkey.

WAIT! before i confuse you any longer, let me give you a condensed version of the background of the situation. 

on june the 18th, 2009 my contract with my former company expired. despite the fact that i wanted to continue my employment there, i was not willing to stay as an intern. and due to the usual administrative problems, right now i am unemployed. 

NO, i'm not gonna whine about being unemployed. after going back to my old posts during my unemployment days, (and believe me it was a long period) i realized how pathetic i would be if i start whining again now. 

so i made up my mind that 

1. i would try with all my might not to whine about it.

2. i will try and get an even better job

3. i will do all those things that i've been meaning to do all along but didn't have the time to. (e.g work on my blog, clean up my room, etc)

4. i won't waste my time

and the way everything's going right now it seems that i am slowly slipping towards that good old familiar hole. up until this night i have not achieved anything important to me. no applications sent, my room is getting messier, and, had i only taken the time to make one, a to-do list that's longer than my desperately-needing-a-haircut hair. 

and the list actually gets longer and longer with each passing moments, since the more free time i get, the more "project ideas" i come up with. all i've been doing these past couple of days is.. mostly wasting my time with sleeping and looking for trivial stuff on the net. sounds like a dejavu to me. 

but who am i to let myself fall deeper into the same hole.

as i type i am currently in the process of making a short movie. at least one of my projects is undergoing. i'll  keep you updated with the progresses