the fifteen-minute ramble

okay, in an effort to reawaken my writing spirit (has it ever been awake?) i will set the countdown timer of my under-used CDMA phone to 15 minutes and force myself to write for the entire 15 minutes. i will try to ignore formal writing conventions and i may even change languages during the course. and i will try not to care. all i have to do is just write-write-write, right...now

okay, i just pressed the start key. i just realised that there is no need for me to rush, this is not about speed, quality, nor quantity. it's just a writing exercise. if i'm not mistaken i read about it somewhere back in college. hey, mom-and-dad, all that tuition money paid-off... i guess. 

well anyway, the reason i'm doing this exercise is to get a writing groove inside of me. i've been abandoning those writing muscles for quite a while... and i kind of want to have a writing skill readily available. i want to establish a blog with quality writing that i churn out frequently. and hey, establishing a credible online personality wouldn't hurt. doesn't have to be big and notorious. i just want at least a small portion of the net to recognize my name. i wonder how hard it would be. hell, i haven't even determined the target and the indicators, how would i know if i'd succeed..? and damn, i really should stop fussing about the small and technical stuff such as plan, strategy and measurement. although they are important, but if i keep waiting till i've developed an ultra-complex plan with minimal chances of failing, i'll never get started.. and this applies to everything in my life!!!! damn... stop planning dee! start doing..

hahahah, i just called myself dee, i haven't done that for a long time. and it seems corny to refer myself as dee, cause people would think that i'm copying dewi lestari. dang..  i really need to stop worrying about what people think. it's inhibiting. i think i'm reminded of the "dee" name because of my brother, when we chat last night, he called me dee. hell, maybe he's been refering to me as dee all this time, but i've never realised it since we mostly talk verbally. i thought he was just callling me "di" hahah. by the way, i dunno if i really should limit my use of the backspace button. i make so many mistakes... good thing this is digital. if it were written on paper you would see a paper covered with lines, crosses, and repairs. well i don't think repair is the correct word.. damn, my english is getting worser and worser. my verbal brain is deteriorating!. what's the word? repair, revise, argh... so tempted to leave this window and open another to find the right word. i was worried that if i did that then i would be distracted. i kind of suspect that i have some mild form of ADD, cause i really find it hard to concentrate. but then again i really shouldn't worry cause the countdown timer had already went off... wow, 15 minutes fly real fast... oh and i just took of to google translate to find the word i was looking for, it's correction. the 15 minutes are already over.. why am i still writing?|

i really should stop cause i realize how boring this might be to all of you (if there's any) readers out there. actually i still have so many things to ramble.. maybe this is what i need to re-organize my thoughts.  ibetter take it offline and do it privately then. but i do hope if there's any body reading this out there, that you find this piece of writing at least somewhat amusing. okay, i'm rambling. better stop and press publish.